I'm in love with the worst person I could ever fall for...
I met him when I was a freshman in high school, and he was a senior. He played my friend. He had sex with her, and never spoke to her after. I had no idea, and a year later I ended up falling for him. He was my first kiss, and I'd never really had a boy like him in my life. My parents didn't approve, but I didn't listen.
Slowly but surely, I found out about all the things he'd been keeping from me. I found out he slept with her, I found out about many other girls. But being stupid, I still cared. Eventually, after crying and hurting for too long, we stopped talking.
I got a new boyfriend, and was happy. But I was so messed up from the first guy that I would overanalyze our relationship, and we ended up breaking each others hearts.
The other guy came back, and we hooked up. And it was so soon after I had broken up with the other guy. He could tell I was messed up, and then he started telling me that he had been cheating on me with 5 other girls the ENTIRE time, and that I was a game from the very start...
He felt bad, because he changed me. He told me that he didn't like seeing me like this, that it wasn't the girl he had meet years prior, and that it was his fault that I was becoming a "pre-sex whore." He said we would be friends, and he would be there for me as my friend always...
SO we became friends..I thought.
Then we hung out, and it turned into a date. And now, we are seeing each other..But I KNOW that he is with other girls too. And he goes too far with me..I tell him I don't want to but he forces me.. The thing is I want to. But I know that I shouldn't..
I wonder why it's so suddenly different.
And he tells me that it's because he actually likes me this time...
This boy hurts me.
But I love him.
I love him more than anyone else ever will. And I can't just cut him out of my life, because his sister is my best friend..
I don't need advice, because I know that no two people can truly understand the pain another goes through..Because their heart isn't the one that's tied up.... :/