Marriage for Money?

I am 24 and have been married for 5 months. I married for money, not my husband's, but my father-in-law's; who promised to help my dad out with some business problems if I married his son. My father-in-law and I are the only ones who know about this deal.

I saw my husband as a nice guy, but not marriage material. I didn't feel a spark, but agreed anyway. I put off sleeping with Scott until our wedding night. At that time, I learned that he was great!!! in bed. The sex was incredible.

I come from a family that lost most of its money when the real estate bubble burst. I am married into a family with money; however, Scott does not have access to it and insists we make it on our own.

Worrying about budgets and spending is new to me, but I am trying. Money meant something to me once, but now, other than wanting to see my Dad back on his feet again, I don't care. I will make mistakes and overspend sometimes out of habit. Scott will fuss at me if I go over our budget.

In every other way, he spoils me terribly. I get flowers and love notes for no occasion. He will insist on getting up in the middle of a cold winter night to go to Walgreen's just because I have the sniffles.

Not to be cold, but like Sharon Stone in Basic Instinct, I have come to enjoy what he does for me. Our weekend morning sex can stretch into the early afternoons. During the days, I am thinking about our nights.

Scott is so funny. For his birthday, he didn't want me to buy anything. He just wanted me to strip for him like a scene we saw in a movie. He will be giddy because he's got a "gal with big boobs".

Now, I am haunted by my reason for marrying Scott. For a number of reasons, I am worried he may find out about his Dad and me. I don't know how he would take it. I don't want to lose him. What should I do?

Lauren